Sometimes life has a way of handing you lessons you never even realized you needed to learn and often times a lesson you never really wanted to learn. This illness has been the single most humbling experience of my entire life. Everything about my life I once knew and depended on has been turned into something that now feels like a vapor. It’s just gone. The most frustrating thing is that when you’re sick like this, you never get to take a timeout and recharge. But things were gradually getting better after we returned home from treatment in June. We were hopeful, encouraged and starting mentally “almost” making plans for the things I would do in possibly a year’s time and then . . . it all fell to pieces. A little over three weeks ago I started to notice a change in my body. At first it was little things and then, well, it quickly became everything. Formerly non-allergenic foods started to cause major issues. Even my own dental mouth guard started to bother me. The scent from chemical particles started to become more intensified when I didn’t feel that was possible. The last two times I received my Gammagard (gamma globulin) infusion, I swelled up BAD and reacted w/ horrible all over itching. In previous weeks I had nearly NO reaction to this medication. Something had gone horribly wrong.